Psychologist Tomorrow

So...here it is 140am and I am still awake. Why? Well because I am dying my hair. LOL. But no the main reason why I stayed up so late was because I had to finish my homework that I am behind on from week 1 of school...we are now getting into week 3. But I had so many things happen to me week 1...that I wasn't able to get stuff done. I am 1 chapter and 1 letter away from being finished.

Anyways, went on a bit of a tangent, so tomorrow is my psychologist appointment. I am a little nervous about it, just because I don't know exactly what is going to happen. I have noticed watching YouTube video's that people do not really talk about what happens at the psychologist appt. I am not sure if it's because it is forbidden or what. But unless I don't hear otherwise, I am going to come back tomorrow from my appt and talk about what exactly happened at the appt.

Alright, that is it for now. Gotta go wash out my hair and then go to bed.

GOT MY LETTER and....

So.....ms impatient got her letter. The reason I say ms impatient is because after watching some videos on YouTube this past weekend I started freaking out about being denied and having to do the 6 month weight loss thingy. So I wanted to see if there was any inquiries about my insurance regarding bariatric and I also wanted to know if I had to do the 6 month diet thing. So...no there was no inquiries and no I don't have to do the six month thing. So I called the surgery clinic to see where my application stood, left a message. Well yesterday, literally the minute I walked out of class my phone rings and it was the clinic. The first thing that she asked was if I received the letter yet. At that time, no I had not. So we proceeded to move things along and SCHEDULE APPTS!!!!!!! So...I have my first nutritional consult next Tuesday. And then I go in for all of my initial lab work, ekg, exercise test and sleep test NEXT FRIDAY! It was initially for this coming Friday, but they had to reschedule. But SO WHAT!!! This is moving along pretty fast.

So I get home...and Taadaa...there is my letter!!! It says that I could be having the surgery anywhere from 6 weeks to 6 months. YIKES!!!

I have made a few phone calls to different psychologists to start my assessment. I called one yesterday and the lady said she was going to call me right back...NOPE. So I called again today and left a message and then I called another place. I think I want to go with the second place, I looked at her website and I really like the information provided.

So here comes the freak out part. I am freaking out! I have a mixture of emotions right now. I am scared but I am also excited.

I AM NOT OFFICIALLY ON THE JOURNEY TO A NEW HEALTHY ME!!!!!

Nervous

I am getting more and more nervous about getting this letter from the doctor's office. I wonder if I will be denied. I mean, I really shouldn't be denied. I have type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure, PCOS and my BMI is like off the charts. So......but there could be that chance that the insurance company does not want me to have this surgery. Oh man. I don't know. Fortunately, with the million you tube videos I watch, I have yet to come across someone who has been denied. But bet your booty I am going to appeal if I do get denied. Ugh. This waiting game is killing me.

I am already setting my expectations to not have this surgery until September or October....BUT...after seeing many people who have had to do this 6 month weight loss thing...I want to call my insurance company and see if I have to do that so I can get started on it now.

So I have uploaded a video to YouTube. Gross!!!!!!!! I can't believe that I have let me self get like that. So disgusting.

Ok I am going to go now. I just had to get that out of my system!

1 week

Well....It officially has been 1 week since I have submitted everything needed to get the process going. This week has gone by pretty fast, but I am not sure it's due to school starting or due to my trip to the ER or my now sickness. Lame.

So I have at the most 2 weeks left until I get my letter. Sigh. That's too long. :/

Just wanted to give a small update.

Impatient....

OMG!!! I am getting so freaking impatient. I want my letter already. But I still have 1.5-2.5 weeks to go. LOL. School is starting tomorrow, so I am hoping this will keep my mind off of things.

The hardest part so far is being careful to not get pregnant. I know, TMI, but its the truth. We have to be extra careful AND I can't get pregnant until a year after surgery. Which will be fine and I am ok with that because I know that once I am healthier, I will be able to have a healthy pregnancy. So I am pretty much in that mind set right now and not really focusing on my baby fever.

Another thing that is going to come to an end or start coming to an end is my diet soda. I am a sodaholic. So once I get my letter I am going to start weaning off the soda.

....I had to save this as a draft yesterday because it got too late. So here we are 04/02/2012 @ 5pm. I am pretty much not in the best moods. Somethings are out of your control and people's reactions on situations is their problem. I have always stood by the message that you do not have to explain yourself to ANYONE! So I am not. I said what I had to say and now I am going to leave it alone. What a person does with the information and how they process the events that happened is now on them.

So anyways, school started today and I have been busy reading over the information for my online class. Holy crap...there is alot of information, but I got this. I am also trying to fight a sickness. IDK what is going on, but my throat is hurting like no one's business!!

So I am going to give this web link out to people who know what is going on and then later I will give it out to others, but right now I feel this is the best way for me to keep loved ones informed of the progress. (minus of a person or two).

I have so much on my mind right now, but this is not where I will get it all out. I don't know where or when I will do that but yeah.

I am super doooopppeeerr excited to go get my mail everyday, even though that day, like today, there could be nada in my mail box. boo hoo!

My decision

So here it is...I have finally made that one big decision in my life that will change it forever. I have decided to get Gastric Bypass. I have struggled with my weight for so many years and after the loss of my baby in 2010 and being put on insulin for my diabetes, my weight has been in a steady incline. I suffer from type 2 diabetes, was put on insulin when I was pregnant December of 2009, and in January of 2010, a week before my wedding, I lost my baby when I was 8 weeks and 5 days. That was very traumatizing to me. I also have high blood pressure and and and and...the list of medical conditions continue.

So I have been thinking about getting gastric bypass for a few months but never told anyone. I then recieved an email from my mom asking me if I would reconsider it and that if I did, she would help pay for the removal of excess skin. See, I was in active process of getting it done a few years ago, but totally freaked out about it and never went through. But now that I know more people doing it and less horror stories, I am excited to get it done.

So that night I got the email from my mom, I got on the phone with our insurance company to see if it would be covered. I told it was....and covers pretty well. I was also talking with a friend via Facebook, she had recently gotten it done after a failed lap band. She recommended her doctor and I got checked with my insurance to see if she is in network and she was!!!! I got on the website, I did the online seminar and immediately filled out the application, online. The next, I think it was the next day or the day after I faxed in my insurance cards. So now...its the waiting game. Waiting for them to get the insurance information, I will then get a letter in the mail and it will give me directions on what I need to do from there. They said it should take about 2-3 weeks. Which I have been praying that it will be ALOT sooner than that. I want this SO bad, and I want it now. Luckily, school starts tomorrow and I can keep my mind busy, but it will always be there.

I haven't told very many people about this decision, but the ones I have told seem to be very supportive. Unless, they are just putting on that poker face. Its a big decision and I am sure people are worried for my saftey, but I think my health is what they should be worried about.

So there it is. That is my BIG decision in life. I will post updates along the way and there maybe some rants and raves that I need to get off my chest. So bare with me. This is going to be a long process.